2004. A teenager at 17.

The girl was pure, unwounded.
She met her first Chinese boyfriend in her first private institute.
Days later, it was CNY.
He invited her to his house to pay New Year call to his parents.
She agreed. remembering that "guy who would bring his girlfriend home to meet his parents is serious about her."
She went. but no one was at home.
She asked, where's your family?
He rushed her into his room and started touching her.
She freaked out.
She stopped him & ran away.
Her mum called him up and scolded him.
He then quitted school.
the class thought that she played with his feelings for a week and ditched him. and he quit because he was hurt by her.

2007. She was 20.

She thought she found someone mature, and loved her.
But a week later,
his girlfriend called her.
She then realised, she was 2-timed.
She cried the night.
That's when she learnt that...
Cheating really exists.

2008. She was merely 21.

Long Distance Love.
Raped by her own boyfriend.
She was crying & struggling on bed,
he forced, and even smiled
when he realised he popped her cherry.
Her parents didnt believe her.
and said she's partly at fault.
It kills her. deep inside...
He always compared her to other girls
and even suggested that she should go for plastic surgery.
And she did.
One day, he emailed from miles away and said,
his ex came back to him. Sorry.

2009. Another LDR.

The over possessive boyfriend took control of her life from miles away.
Til the state that,
She could'nt go out with friends
He would log into her FB
and delete anything he doesn't like.
Til the state that,
He private messaged her friends and scolded them.
This hit her.
She lost friends.
She yelled. She screamed.
She hurt her parents with the state she had became.
She went insane.

2010. She turned 23.

This guy said he would help her forget her ex,
who made her agitated with his acts.
Just after 3 weeks being together,
He started cheating,
with his ex-girlfriend.
She's not stupid. She knew.
But she's tired of finding a new relationship.
So she kept on holding on and lying to herself.
This went on, 10 months...
Pregnancy test. Positive.
He said he would go through everything with her.
His solution: Abortion.
His reason: Not ready yet. No savings. baby will suffer.
She did what he insisted.
A week later, he went back to his ex again,
and asked her to sign up HDB with him
and go ROM together.
Her heart sank. She gave up. at last.
It took her 4 months,
to get over everything.

2011. He came back.

Knowing that because he failed to chase back his ex, he came back to her.
Yet knowing that she was just a 2nd option, she still accept him back.
This time, things were better than the previous year.
Until 1 and a half year later,
he cheated again.
S$100 for a China prostitute.
He was never Sorry. He was cold.
She was devastated.
She gave up once again.
But she got worse.
No trust. Fear. No confidence.

2013. This year.

The guy who used to be there for her since 3 years ago...
appear in her life again.
She felt most loved.
He did things she least expected
and made her heart beat again.
He was everything she has been looking for
but things changed.
From a prince, to a beast.
From tender love, to harsh and hurtful words.
From loving care, to violence.
She's traumatised.
She loves him.
But she has to live in fear now.
Perhaps she killed the love she has been looking for all her life...

Why is she born into this world
to suffer this much?
When she needed love most,
she get the opposite in return.
Now she lives in pain.

God, please take her away.
Or give her the strength to take her own...
Please.........
It's breaking up inside.